This is saving myself for him. This is preservation. Paying attention, actively guarding, patiently protecting. This is handing over to God all the keys that open me up. He's good at safe-keeping. This is careful conservation. Heart, mind, body, and soul.
This is learning. To feed him, to clothe him, to take care of his children. To love him as best as I can. Learning womanhood - the virtuous kind. Learning to love God more than I could ever love anyone.
This is preparation.